Not Here, But Out Of It

Seriously, I wouldn't wanna stay here, in Malaysia. Though, its my country, but I wish to move to somewhere else to study which I had in mind. I prefer to have a different environment where there's peace of mind everyday and different lifestyle. This is my biggest hope and I hope it will be done one day.

I wouldn`t stay

Lately, I've been thinking could I manage myself to go somewhere which I plan to go next year? I wouldn't wanna stay here, though. I guess its time for me to make decision to leave here and start my new journey to somewhere I wish to be at. Lots of memories behind, though, where I will surely miss it, but I need to make a step forward for my life and to the place where I plan to go. Perhaps, this will bring me something new and its a good opportunity to have new experience.

Amiss Me

I had been such an inconsiderate one as I have treated you with a defective manner. I recalled what I had done to you and I found that it went overboard. I can see that you are hating this feeling and I shall not ask for more. I will stop and it won't happen again. I have ruined your lively moment and I felt so amiss.

I Wish

You have plenty of friends, who can turn to you anytime, anywhere. I wish I could have that congregation, though, but unfortunately its not what I expected. Abundantly, I managed to notice, you'll look more pleased when you have your group of friends which they intended to cope with you, and you look more restless either. I wish I could have that moment.

Treasure You

The moment we spent wasn't wasted in the matter of joy and heavy hearted. This is how we get along to get a hearty relationship and better understanding. I'll treasure the moment we will spend from time to time and I don't wish to see you leave my heart. Truly, I'll offer you, my heart and I hope you could handle it with care. I'd always pray and I believe one day HE will answer me with miracles happenings. Amen!

Hold

I hold onto myself whenever I see something that got my eye. This is not what I pining for, but it just made me feel very uncouth yet skeptical. From time to time, I invariably indicate myself not to consistently go through this circumstance in any circumstances because I don't like to have those fondness. For I know, it's a very defective decision to show you that I'm being such a one. Sometimes, I prefer to cover myself with this matter by not wanting you to know because it's not righteous, but i refuse to do so. I promised you, I would split out whatever I had in mind. Though, I will, but I just hope you could bare with me with this matter which I am trying to change and correct myself to display a better me sooner or later.

I believed I'd always made you upset

Have I complained too much about you recently? I wish you could just be honest to me yet tell me the truth. Don't conceal yourself from me because I never did. I felt hurt deeply inside when I saw you were upset where there's not a single smile while we talked. Emotionally, you are not a particular person to me, but it's indescribable which am not afraid to declare. Seemingly, I can state how you feel and what are you thinking sometimes by looking at your mien which I hope you wouldn't mind.